I've been learning a lot in regards to many things over the last several months.
I'm learning a new job which has added a different kind of stress to my life.
I'm learning that I must be meticulous in how much I guard myself from others. Especially in my role as a pastor's wife.
I'm learning how to balance family, church commitments, work, and what it takes for life to work.
But most of all, I'm learning that I have to accept things for what they are.
Life will never be exactly as I want it to be. I am learning to accept that I am not meant to have some of the things my heart desires.
In fact, at this point, I am meant to be here, right now, raising my children, being a wife, and fulfilling commitments while other parts of me go neglected and will always be so.
I do realize everyone is different and unique in their needs and desires. I am no different, but acceptance of what's to be a reality must happen...and for me, it means a life of putting others first while denying myself.
And that's okay...
...but at what cost...
It's reality.
